Love is for every body. Love comes to people who felt loved. Love knows no disrespect, shame and dishonesty. They say we only get one great love in a life time. True. But not all great love means two people being together.
It started in 2001. I got in to a relationship with a great guy named Marco. Marco is simpatiko, humble and honest. We’ve been together for 4 years. Four unforgettable years of my life. Everyday is like a fairytale. I thought way back then na nakita ko na ang taong makakasama ko until the day of my last breath but I was wrong. It’s the other way around. From the very beginning Marco had been straight with me. He tells me everything. We had no secrets. We are open to each other kahit na noong nililigawan pa nya ako. Marco is open even to very personal things.
I know most readers will think of this as a typical story but It doesn’t matter. Marco is a great guy and our story is real. Marco had cancer. He opened up to me since day one. I knew back then that this will get me into heartbreaks if I enter in to a relationship that I know one day will end. But one thing is for sure, I did not regret that I followed my heart. Pinili kong masaktan than not to be happy.
Marco and I shared loads of memories together. We go to road trips, watched movies every weekend and we even go to dinner dates almost every other night. Simple lang ang buhay namin noon. I don’t remember a single sad minute we had together before he got very ill. Marco is the kind of guy who shows you his affection. His not just contented in saying the word I LOVE YOU. He makes sure that he acts what he say. Kung gano kashowy si Marco, yun naman ang kabaliktaran ko. I remember not saying I love him first. Its always him saying the word then me. But he doesn’t mind those small things as long as I know that he loves me.
It was 2003 when Marco started to be weak. We were at the hospital every now and then for check ups and treatments. To be honest, nagquit ako sa trabaho ko nun makasama ko lang sya sa mga huling sandali naming dalawa. Marco never showed me na nahihirapan na sya. He still tells me na we will get through everything. We will get pass every hardship and one day we will still be happy being together. Walang araw noon na hindi ko kinayang hindi umiyak. Almost everytime I see him I cry. Sabi ko sa sarili ko non, “dumating na ang araw na kinatatakutan ko.” Napaisip ako, pano kaya kung pinili kong layuan sya noon palang, magiging ganito kaya kasakit ngayon?
Before Marco died, he read a letter for me. The letter goes something like this, “You gave my life meaning and you gave me hope. Hope that I know that even one day will end between us. But one thing’s for sure, our love is eternal. Our love is forever. I will always give my self to you till my very last day. I love you and thank you for loving me back.” I cried. Ang bigat pala sa dibdib na malamang isang araw mawawala na sayo ang taong tinuring mong parte na di lang nang puso mo kundi pati na ang buhay mo. Marco is my life. He motivates me. Mahirap pala talaga. Mahirap mawalan nang mahal.
Marco told me na hindi ako dapat matakot, hindi dapat akong matakot sa kung ano man ang mangyayari pagkagising ko kinabukasan. Simple lang ang buhay, sabi nya. Hindi natin dapat gawing komplekado ang lahat. Mawawala man sya pero hindi parin magbabago ang pag-ibig. Pag-ibig naming dalawa.
January of 2004, Marco died. I was on my way to the hospital nang bawian sya nang buhay. Pagdating ko, wala na sya.
Its 2011 and still a part of my heart brings back the pain. 7 years ago, sa hospital nang madatnan kong wala nang buhay si Marco hindi ako umiyak. Not until the day of his Funeral. At un ang una’t huling iniyakan ko ang pagkawala nya. Sinabi ko sa sarili ko, hindi naging malungkot ang love story naming dalawa kaya walang dapat iluha. Instead I should remember that once in my life I had Marco to share the meaning of love, UNCONDITIONAL.
Love is never an option but it’s a choice. Pinili nating magmahal kasi alam natin yun ang tama at yun ang nararapat. Love unconditionally and always believe in the power of it. For one day, it will give you joy and contentment. Walang unhappy ending sa buhay nang tao. Everything always end well kahit na kamatayan man ang mamagitan. Marco will always be loved and will always be a special part of me. I think of Marco as my angel. I know that from where he is now, our love still remains eternal and forever.
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